Actress Mandira Bedi, who lost her husband, producer Raj Kaushal, in 2021, is coping with her grief and says the first year following his passing was the hardest for her.
In an interview with Humans of Bombay, Mandira said that the first year was the hardest, but things became better the year after that. (Read More: “Veterans Were Not Happy With Me”, Mandira Bedi Talks About Facing Discrimination While Hosting World Cup 2003!!)
“Dealing with the loss”
Mandira talked about the journey of navigating the loss of her husband. She mentions the first year as the hardest. She and her children think about him every day. She highlighted how it gets easier with time.
She stated, “The only way out is through. Of course, my children and I think of him every day. It’s not like we’ve forgotten him. The first year was very, very, very, very hard. The first of everything is just impossible to deal with. The first birthday, the first anniversary, the first Diwali, the first Christmas, and the first New Year. The second one is a little bit easier, and the third one is a little bit easier.
“Work in Progress”
Mandira admitted that she was still a work in progress. She shared that she started working two months after it happened because she had to support her family.
She revealed, “There are moments when we remember him because of a song. I’ve done the therapy I needed to, there are times I still do it. As human beings, we are always a work in progress… What I can do now is talk about it. It makes me emotional, but I can. There was a time I couldn’t. But I won’t break down… I started working two months after it happened… I have to support my family and myself. I need to do it for my children.”
“Always grieve him.”
In the interview, the actor also revealed that she has had Raj’s car for the past six years, and she can’t bring herself to part ways with it. She said that she has been holding onto it for emotional reasons, and she will cry when she sells it.
Mandira goes on to mention that she has dealt with the bulk of it, “but for the rest of my life, I’ll always grieve him”. However, there is one thing she still can’t do, and that is to listen to Kishore Kumar’s music.