I still love my ex-husband….

I need suggestions .I love my ex husband with all my heart .I tried to escape this relationship but I was so afraid from his mom nd my brother .I tried to know his feelings but failed so I took divorce because he never ask me to come . One else came to ask m if you wanna please come .but that time mujhe kisi ne smjhya nhi .pya nhi sbko todne m hi lge the.jbki Mene hmesha kha I love him so much uski family ki vjh se rishta hi tudva diya.lekin ab me Jimmy Keke use bat ki but vo reply nhi Kiya nd said ab kya fayda ik msz me .problem ye hai Mai family shadi ki force kr rhi h but in shadi ki bat aati h mujhe mn nhi krta kisi aur se.mujhe lagta nhu m happy rhugi kisi aur k sath.koi b acha nahi lagta.lekin na chahte huye bhi ISI ko sochti hu bhoy koshish krtj hi ab nhi krugi yad but again usi Ko sochti Hoti hi JB khyal se bahar aati hu.ajkl apno m aata .an subh jagi TB b sari raat some m usi se bare krti rhi. M kya kru .past bhulna chahti hu but jitna try krti hu utna usi m fsti hu.ldka Mera support kbhi nhi Kiya just starting m ok do bar msz Kiya m prvah kruga abse but TB believe nhi hua .ab lagta hai mujhe himmt krni chahte thi .I know it’s late Lekin bhgvan janta h m ik simple shrug ldki hu pliz suggest or pray by heart to God mujhe sadbuddi de .agar ex ka role h life m to jldi se hme Sath kre .nhi h to move on kre mujhe .deprsn m as jati hu JB bhi past sochti hu .